Take the Cross and Follow Me!

I've never seen the cross so vivid until i called out to my Lord in desperation and He made it come ALIVE in my life.

"If anyone wishes to come after me", he said, "he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me" (Lk 9:23).

First of all let me make this clear, if my style of writting irritates anyone, i make no apologies for i like to express myself as real as i can. I am not a scholar, just a simple girl trying to share positivity in this world of negativity.

The other night i was having a hard time dealing with something (shoot i still am)

As i desperately asked God to lift the load because the pain was so intense (one thing i must admit i was doing a lot of talking and not enough listening) I felt God listening to my madness patiently. All a sudden I felt this complete silence in the room and my heart had nothing else to say. He cleared all tears from my eyes, the anxiety was gone and i was ready to receive. He says, Do you remember the pain i endured for you, do you remember the struggle i went through to carry the cross, do you remember how i fell got back up fell again, do you remember that at one point i couldn't carry it and someone else helped me?

I din't give up i made it to the sacrificial place, carrying MY cross. So this i ask of you, If you are my disciple and want to follow me you must endure the pain and struggles that comes from carrying the cross don't give up I AM HERE TO HELP YOU CARRY THE CROSS...

Be still and know i am GOD

Be still and Know i am God.....

I drive a lot these days, some days are better than others, yet the alone time i get to spend with the Lord is priceless. As a mother of 4 it seems impossible at time. Over the past few weeks I've been feeling a bit out of balance. This morning as i drove back home, i was thinking what's the deal, why don't i feel this joy i should feel? why am i not hearing from YOU lord? Why why why, where are you LORD that i can't hear you, why are you not talking to me? Why do i feel so alone? And to lift up my sword to fight, feels like a ton of weight on my shoulder. I was searching for answers, i wanted to hear something i never heard before, I wanted to get enlighten on the latest spiritual thing If you know what i am saying.
And it all came very softly as i decided to shut up and listen. The Lord clearly said, I have been here all along, Where have you been? I am the God of Yesterday, today and eternity, i never change, where have you been? Everything i was asking was said to me in a simple answer, and i was faced with the truth.

When in desperate need of God we are on our knees asking and pleading for God to rescue us, which don't get me wrong is the best thing you can ever do. But once we get that answer to get us back on our knees sometimes never comes until we are hit with a storm all over again. Stiff neck people why do we keep falling for the same traps over and over!!! Why do we have to walk around like the rest of the world, why is our light on today and tomorrow darkness surrounds us. How sad is it that some of us need storms to continuously come our way, for us to surrender to GOD. Be still and Know i am God...Be still and know i am the one in charge you can not do anything if i don't approve.

Spiritual Drought

Hi ya'll and God Bless..

Is a blessing to be able to write to you again..I've missed your thoughts and inputs on my crazy HEARTWRITTEN devotionals that i love sharing with you. I have to be real and say that aside from being busy family planning i went through a season of spiritual drought. Let me be clear NO i did not stop being a "Christian" or by any means stopped loving God. I think some if not most of you can relate to what i am saying because in our walk we've hit this state of being at some point, and if you haven't i pray you never do.I share this because is important first of all to be REAL and Most importantly encourage others who might be in this situation or run into it at some point in their lives. My overall goal is to Glorify the name of God through everything i do.

As i learn more and more the WORD of God i believe more and more this from Isaiah 55:11 "so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it." It is why we can never run for too long because the word of God accomplishes His will in our lives and we must deal with truth. I completely understand and accept my walk towards sanctification, though i might never reach it here on earth i die trying and believing His promise. We fall yes, yet we have one who 1.helps us back up. 2 assures us guidance and help in our walk "daily lives" 3.protects us from evil.
One last verse that helped me rebuke this state i was in was the WORD in Jeremiah 12:2b "You are always on their lips but far from their hearts" We are filled with scriptures, we recite them over and over, Love giving them to others, post them all over our walls and what not.. YET WE KEEP THEM SO FAR FROM OUR HEARTS..I had to do some serious checking of myself in this area, But here i am a work-in-progress never giving up because this race is for valiants AND I AM MORE THAN A CONQUEROR.. AMEN!