Submission, A Woman Constant Struggle...

While visiting Sailor's & Company BF community today i came across this post, which stroke a cord enough for me to write a post about it.

Michelle asked these great questions;

I know the "Sunday School" answer to this, but I want to hear practically from you godly ladies, how do you submit to your husband when he doesn't hold up his end of the bargain, and if he doesn't "deserve" it?

Like Michelle i asked God these questions all the time. I struggled with the thought "why should i submit to someone who doesn't appreciate it or doesn't submit to the Lord himself at times- Or like Michelle said doesn't hold his end of the bargain". 

I thought of the first sentence she wrote "i know the Sunday school answer" and tried to come up with an answer to her questions with this in mind, but truth is i couldn't. There is no way for me to answer these questions outside of what i personally experience in my life and that is the power of the Holy spirit convicting me and guiding me to what is right. There are days when i completely toss it all out the window. I let anger, frustration, self centeredness, the enemy overall get the best of me. And yes, i toss the whole "Sunday school practice" out the window. But what happens to me at the moment, at the end of the day or sometimes the next day is the work of God through the Holy spirit guiding me to what is right. The voice speaks volume in my heart and asks me these questions;

Does Jesus in all his perfection ever ask himself why should i forgive her if she never holds up her end of the bargain, why should i continue over and over pouring my over abundant grace on her if she doesn't deserve it?

I don't have a answer to this! My part is to continue praying daily that He transforms me every day more and more like Him. That i can keep pressing on towards the finish line and come out victorious with my family. So no matter what my husband does or doesn't do, my job is to continue pressing on in prayer. My God is faithful, my God is truth- So when He says " call on to me and i will respond" i not only believe Him, but try over and over to live like it. There will be days when i fail at the attempt, but He with all His LOVE will open His arms to me and tell me "I am you father, and i forgive you" and the race continuous...

What a wonderful God we serve...

We are in a race and only the valiant reach the end, now ask yourself what are you? No matter where your partner is (unless your being abused and your life is in danger) you must remain faithful in prayer and know that, you and i are NOT perfect either we have our flaws but if the Lord has opened OUR spiritual eyes to His greatness and your partner is still not there, your responsibility is even greater and through Prayer to the one who gives the power to sustain your marriage, we shall be victorious..

Jesus Your MY ROCK!